Update!

The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step~Unknown

The mightiest oak was once a tiny acorn that stood it's ground~Unknown

So I had the worst day yesterday. I was awfully tired and hungry and the guy who was supposed to be on the second cash register never showed up, giving me no break. I'm trying to get myself to move on from one guy, but I can't stop thinking about him and I know it's not healthy. I was also still kind of depressed from saying goodbye to all of my closest friends this week. My two very best friends both left, and I cried while driving for the first time this week. Today was supposed to be our traditional movie day with us three, but they're gone. One's in Cullowhee, the other in Boone.
But let's not dwell on the bad parts. I'm skyping the one in Boone and the one in the Whee is coming back Saturday to get some stuff he forgot.

I was extremely worried about my first taught Sunday School lesson this morning. I had no reason to be! I only had one lovely 3rd grader this morning, and she reminds me so much of myself when I washer age. She is SO smart, that she pretty much taught the Bible story about Paul and Silas in prison to me! But then she confided in me, she's been bullied in school the past 3 years, and her little brother is now in Kindergarten and she is scared that he's going to get bullied too. And she is so wise that she realizes she isn't going to have her parents forever and she doesn't want that day to come. She told me all of these things until she had brought herself to tears. I felt my heart slowly breaking. I offered her some God-given advice I didn't know I had, and I tied it all in with the Bible lesson as well. But then I heard myself; I was telling her to pray for her guidance and her little brother. I realized that maybe I should start taking my very own advice. I've been scared for my little brother all my life as well, I need to go back to praying for him every day again, as well as for some much needed guidance.

Then this girl told me a story about her first day of school this year. She had gotten an answer wrong on a placement test, but she had a second chance after they graded it. The second time she got the answer correct. When they went to lunch, she prayed to God, thanking him for helping her get it right and she said that some of the other kids looked at her weird for doing so. I was so shocked by this story. I was in such a state of admiration at her faith. If only I could have the faith of a child again, I'm finally realizing what everyone means when they say this.

God speaks to Moses through a burning bush

What I've just written makes me feel inadequate, yet capable at the same time. I feel like Moses. I am capable through God to carry on and help this little girl whom I admire so much, and I am inadequate to do so on my own. As I start my very first day of college tomorrow morning, I pray I keep this in mind. Tomorrow is, in fact, the first day of the rest of my life; but then again, everyday is!

Exodus 4:12 (NIV)

"Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."